I’m so fucking depressed and I feel completely helpless. I’m generally depressed these days and I just can’t bring myself to do any college work or even go there. I’m repeating the year and I can’t afford another failure. I know that. I just can’t bring myself to do anything. Everything is dark in my eyes. I don’t know what to do. I guess I should try harder. Perhaps I should stop being sad about those assignments I didn’t hand out and those classes I skipped. Maybe I should just start from now and try to save what’s left. I just don’t have a good feeling about the whole thing, because when I start off bad, it ends up worse.

Perhaps I should just accept the fact that I’m a helpless case and a failure. I will never be good enough.